Why?

I've been asking this questions lots of times recently. Unanswered questions bother my mind which is full as it is and its giving me a really bad headache.

Why am I the only one who actually is able to forgive him? Why can't the others see the point of what he has done? Why do I feel like I'm being negligent about this certain situation happening between me and my friends? Why do I actually feel pissed at myself?

These are the question currently in my mind right now. There are millions of other questions stuck in this useless brain of mine but are being covered by these big questions. I think the reason why my head hurts is because I've met the maximum capacity of questions that my brain can handle.

I'm going to rant here, and these are some of the things that I've only shared with one person. I don't find the need to say this out loud, mainly because I feel that it's not really appropriate.

Me and my friends got into this fight. Someone started to ignore us, posted this in facebook and then ignored us to the point that it was actually annoying. It turns out that we were being tested. To see if we were truly friends. I have to thank him for that though. Because of what we did, we actually got closer again. He told me this first that he was hurt. Why wasn't anyone bothering to look for him during lunch time? Why wasn't anyone caring that he actually got a 69 as a grade in a test? And that rude comment one of my friends left for everyone to see, because she doesn't know how to send a private message, was the one that made the bomb explode inside him. He never really opened up to us that much. Only very rarely. He was that type of person who just listens to you, tries to helps you. And when you're happy, he's happy. But that happiness is bound to be only temporary.

Now he tells sorry and explains why he did those things. Now, the others can't forgive him. They can, but they won't. They don't want to. They've already kicked him out, as they said. Chains of Empire is the name of their new group. It's basically still the same people, just minus him. I have to admit, I'm fine with all of this.

You know the saying "forgive and forget"? Why can't they just forgive him for a start? Whatever happens, we're all still friends. Just cause they've forgiven him, doesn't exactly mean that they've forgotten.

But why am i the only one who has forgiven him. They don't even communicate with each other anymore! And it's only been a week. Maybe I'm just over reacting. Give it a little more time, and the wound will heal.

But how long will it take to make that wound turn into a scab? And how long will that scab just disappear forever. To actually forget that you've had that kind of pain before.

Sigh... Life has been stressful... when hasn't it been?

Oh yeah... When I haven't stepped into senior year.