Sigh... that means why in japanese.
Somehow, the only way I can express myself is by speaking in japanese. Ugh damn it. I haven't been able to think straight since this morning. It's really been pissing me off. I want to throw a metal table on someone's face right now. At least let this anger out a little.
Crying doesn't work. I've tried earlier today. The passive-aggressive way of letting it out failed as well. I got scolded by my father for being to grouchy and disrespectful to him. I just used PMS as an excuse.
I don't want things to end this way.
Even if a person leaves and announces it to the group, does that mean that they're not friends anymore? Doesn't it just mean that you're not going to hang out with them, but you're still friends?
See, I'm not even sure if my grammar is wrong!
Mou, hontoni mukatsuku.
He should've at least explained why he was doing this, ignoring us and all. He was the one who said I don't want things to end this way. Why is he acting like this now? What could we have possibly done wrong? Huh? I don't recall what happened. Everything was fine. We were having fun, chatting and laughing with his friends since I wanted to at least stay with them for a while since it was fun. Then come Monday lunch time, boom. He doesn't even say a word. He just ignores you.
Ah fuck. this is really pissing me off. I had the sudden want (maybe need) to hit his head repeatedly on the wall. Maybe I should have done it. maybe that would've knock some sense and maturity into that stupidity that seems to have crawled into his brain.
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