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It's been a while since I last posted here. Almost four months. In those short 120 days, I have moved to the country (which I think really is a freezer) known as Canada. Which is apparently the second largest country in the world but everything that happens to it is unnoticed by everyone. I thought they were just joking with this, but it actually is a fact. Their local news is strictly local and apparently all everyone ever things about is weed, smoking, and the weather. There's really no culture here, seeing as everyone are from other countries. No wonder it's invisible. U.N. must love this place.

For the past month that I've been here, nearly having an actual frostbite on my fingers, I've been distracting myself with almost anything. The birds, the sky, the freaking freezing wind, the sun that I miss oh so much, my hoodies, chores around the house, and only recently: my school. I still can't see this place as my home. I miss my old bed, my old room, the electric fan stuck on the ceiling, and most importantly: my pillow. I know. stupid. why miss a PILLOW. but i haven't had a good night's rest since I left. If people here have blankies and dollies, I have my pillow.Evrything is just so big and peaceful that I'm scared. I don't know why, but I'm used to DREAMING about peace and just being in a world with chaos and other whatnot.

Of course that's not the only thing I miss. There's still one particular topic that I don't want to type here yet seeing as I can't see the keyboard now. I think I'll leave that for later when the thought of not seeing them again in years would sink in. There's always a lump in my throat whenever I think about them in public. I'm just not ready to move on. I've hidden their photos in a box under my bed and deep in a folder in my hard drive which I rarely access, the blouse they've signed on is still at the very back of my closet. I just can't look at them now, knowing I'll just start crying again.

Until then, the best I could do is swallow the lump in my throat and act like I have ADHD.

Province

Yey~! For the first time after 4 years, we (as a whole family: me, brother, mother, and father) are going to the province for a two-day, one-night stay!!! I know, too short. But they made up some excuse that they might be intruding but the truth is father just doesn't like that place because nobody follows what he says. Idiot.

This may also be the last time that we go to the province (sad) since of the Canada thing and they (parents) have this thing of not turning back and stuff. Which really goes against everything they taught me as a child, but bah! People change. Sometimes for the good, and sometimes for the bad.

Anywho, now I have to sleep and I have to wake up at 12:30, which according to my watch is 3 hours from now so that I can take a bath, dry and fix my hair, and make it on time for our red-eye flight.

Good night world, and other friends who may or may not read this. I won't be able to check on my other online stuff (TT.TT) since the internet there is really slow.

Someone please text me!!

Wands

Since I already received my allowance for this month, I decided to buy a little something. Something that I wouldn't need. An impulse buy.

Then when I woke up this morning, when I was still groggy and unwilling to get out of bed, it came to me. It was like a light bulb lit up in my brain. I knew what I was going to buy.

I wanted a wand.

See? It's useless and pointless and just shows how much of a Harry Potter geek I am! It's just what I needed!

But then I had a problem... How could I possibly buy one? I'm quite certain that there isn't a shop here in the Philippines that sells Harry Potter goods. Like the one in Florida where there's a whole castle, and Hogsmeade where there's real butterbeer. I want to go there, but I think I'd have to give up since I have no money...

So I look for a wand in the internet and I found it! An assortment of wands that sooo pretty that I want to buy all of it. I want to collect wands, just for a hobby. Then I saw the Hogwarts scarves and the sweaters and uniform...

I want to buy all of them! From wands, to scarves, to the small ballpen broomstick... But I can't afford that! I only have 3000 php left in my account. That's more or less US$70. With the wand at $36+, the ballpen at $2, and the scarf at $1... that's more or less $55, leaving me with $15 which is more or less 700 php.

God, I'm going to be in sooo much trouble. :))

I'm still buying it though.

Fever by Lady Gaga

god. i suddenly got addicted to this song again.

love it!