できないだよ

あたしは、

いつか大丈夫と思う。。。

あたしのことは心配しないで下さい。

でも。。。

あの日はいつ来るんだろうねえ。

New Found Courage

It's times like these where I'm reminded of my resolve to move out in a years time. I'm crying but not because I'm hurt, but because I found a courage in me that I thought I never had. Sure, tears come easily to me this time, but I found that I could do anything if I set my mind into it.

I don't really want to explain it. Just letting the words flow as it goes.

Also, I can't believe how much fear it can put on a person just by saying "I'm calling 911."

Boring

Nothing fun has happened to me in the last few days, other than the fact that the hunger games are coming out next week.

i may have to watch it alone, seeing that there are no classes on the opening day and other schools don't get out till 2:30. but i may drag someone with me.

The Return of the (insert whatever you want here)... Yeah right.

So..

this blog was deleted some time ago, until i decided to restore it because I found that making an entirely new blog would be too much trouble for me. I don't have the patience to go through templates again. ugh. such hard work for such a lazy person like myself.

i decided to start blogging again because of several reasons:
1) I really have no one to talk to. When I want to tell someone something important (like asking for advice), I'd rather do it with the person in front of me. I'm really not comfortable looking at a webcam and talking to the picture on the screen. And since I moved to Canada from the Philippines, I'm really not as close to anyone as I was back home. Hello, how can you replace more or less 8 years of knowing those people.
2) I don't want to tell my friends here about it. I mean, maybe it's because we're not really close to the point that when they insult you, you see it as a complement. Sigh... I don't even know really. I'm not sure.
3) I want to find a way to vent out unwanted feelings out of my system, and what better way to type it instead of saying it to a camera. I am particularly better at letting out emotions through writing them out. I'm not that much of a speaker.
4) No one really reads this blog. Is it that boring? Do I rant too much? Maybe. Probably... Definitely, yeah, let's go with that. But that's the reason why it's so perfect. I may have followers listed there on that tiny little corner, but they don't really go to their blogs anymore, or even their dashboard. So I'll stick to this place to let out any unnecessary feelings that might implode/explode in the near future.

This might actually be good for me. At least I've found another outlet for my feelings, now that I've temporarily stopped writing.